Well, you know the old saying - the fourth time is the charm?????  Today I embark on my 4th counselor - let's see if I get one of these three - 1) talks only about himself, 2) gives you "time's out" or 3) your illness is a demon and you can tell it to leave your body????  OK, ANYONE would be an improvement!  So if you read this before 10:30 central - say a prayer for her to be a GOOD counselor.  If after then pray I was at least able to vent even if I have to talk over them, give them a "time out" (oh, yeah I did and I be that's the first time a pshcystricts has been given a "time out") or tell THEM a demon is in then - no that'd just get me locked up.

You don't know what it' like having this label stuck to your forehead - you can never joke again or even make an off-hand remark, your have to be AFRAID of your physician and so much more I can't even articulate - so enjoy your good mental health.  God forbid you get a label on you and then you can't even cry or even be happy without having a manic label stuck on your forehead.  And yes, I'm bitter - I careful chose the father of my son.  Why couldn't my own mom do the same - and it's not like she stopped when she knew what he was and what his family was - she kept on having us.  Four out of Four bi-polar and two alcoholics!

What I look like today.....